I had a minor breakdown yesterday. Basically, I've always been very independent, and that's something I strongly value. So the transition to (even partial) dependency has been difficult for me. I'm used to doing things how I want them and when I want them - because
I'm doing it. So just asking
galagan for help over and over is hard. So I dissolved into major tears because I felt I was being a horrible demanding bitch. And was comforted (and told that I am not any of those things).
Have I mentioned recently that
galagan is a prince among men? Truly.
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So then, in the midst of a restless night last night, I had a dream. This one's real tricky to interpret.... Basically, I was at the appointment to get my cast off, and they said "Well, you're going to need more surgery, to realign your thumb. But we can't do it yet, so we'll have to wait." And they started taping all my fingers together so I couldn't use them, preparatory to putting on a new cast. It was one of those dreams where you wake up almost bolt upright. Absolutely horrifying, actually. I had a lot of trouble getting back to sleep after that, even though I was reassuring myself that none of that would happen.
So yeah, what do you think I might be afraid of? :)
Aside from not getting the best night of sleep, I feel much better emotionally today. Let's hope this continues.