I am having a difficult evening. I'm just uncomfortable, very fundamentally. And I'm TINY still - how do hugely pregnant women do it? My rib cage hurts, my lower belly hurts, my back hurts, I'm out of breath, and gassy and burpy. This does not bode well for sleeping tonight, I should note. AGAIN. I'm definitely not ready to have the baby get here, but I'm getting toward the point of being
done with pregnancy.
I do go to the doctor tomorrow - but I suspect she'll just say it's all normal.
I just don't know how I'm going to get through the next few weeks. I come home and I'm exhausted. I had great plans for my evening, and a mental list of all the things I would get done, and I've done none of them. I watched TV and worked on the embroidery project which might get hung in the baby's room. Which is a good thing, but I do have other more pressing stuff to do. Only it involves standing and moving around, which I just don't feel capable of.
I have set a date to go on maternity leave though - two weeks from Friday will be my last workday. I just couldn't handle the uncertainty of working right up till.... whenever (which was the original plan). Based on the way I'm feeling tonight, I'm glad I did that. (I only hope I can hold out that long.) I may start leaving early in the afternoons, I think - because I
need to. Otherwise, I don't think I can make it. (I may just be feeling sorry for myself right now - I've been going along so well, and things are just hitting me like a ton of bricks suddenly, and I might not be coping as well as I could. That's okay too. If there were ever a time to take care of myself and nurture and coddle... well, this is it. Eight months pregnant might as well be good for something.)
In other amusing and totally coincidental news, I discovered that a high school classmate of mine works with
ellinor. Wacky. I didn't know her well - but she always seemed like one of those people it would be cool to get to know. Anyway - big coinkydink. My world is getting smaller. :)
Okay. I'm tired. I'm going to take my new
Glamour magazine and go to bed. That will make me feel better if nothing else will. :)